Should I stay or should I go?
I'm not actually thinking about jumping ship, don't fret. But Heather said something yesterday that made me think (because, really, that's exactly what I need, more stuff to overthink) - she said my seeing hardly any wildlife since I got here could be taken as a sign that I'm not really sure if I'm going to stay. It's like I haven't made up my mind yet, and so the North hasn't made its mind up about me, either.
I thought it was more probable that I spend all my day inside the office, and then I go home and spend my evening in the house, but what she said does have some merit.
I might have been a bit hasty coming up here (again, stressing that I am not jumping ship). It was like when I moved to Japan - I got this notion in my head that that was where I had to go, and I went. I didn't think about what it would actually be like, I just closed my eyes and jumped.
I think that my overthinking and my leapwithoutlooking are related. It almost feels like the only way I can make decisions is by jumping, because otherwise I think and think and think until I just can't think anymore...and by then the opportunity has passed.
Yeah.
In other news, I was sassy to someone today, and it felt great! No getting trampled on for this dame.
I think I am the same as you! I made all these moves around the north on whims. Had I put more thought into each move who knows if we would have done it.
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to hear about your new-found sassyness!